A couple of weeks ago, I mentioned the doctor had halted my regularly scheduled maintenance infusion of Rituximab. This temporary halt was so my short-term memory issues could to further diagnosed. The oncology staff set me up with an MRI appointment followed by a visit with a neurologist. In this post, I will discuss how the meeting with the neurologist went. I will note this post is only going to focus on the brain part of my visit with the oncologist. In a future post, I will relay other conversations I had with the neurologist.
Feeling this was a waste of time going in.
Going into this appointment, I had this feeling that I was wasting the time of the neurologist. I already had my MRI completed a week prior. The oncology nursing staff notified me that nothing worrisome was present in the scan. That was great news. There was no sign of cancer or other abnormalities which could be causing my memory loss. At this point, I figured my short term memory loss was a side effect of the Rituximab infusions I’ve been taking every eight weeks.
The appointment was worth it!
I was wrong about the appointment being a waste of the neurologist’s time. The neurologist seemed glad I came to see him. I found the meeting to be very valuable to me. I’ve got to remind myself that sometimes doctors refer me to specialists for a reason. In these situations, I tend to get stuck in the mind-frame that people more deserving of treatment need to see these specialty doctors before I do. But in reality, I have more than enough medical issues that I should be thankful to get such excellent medical service in all areas.
Results of my MRI.
First, the neurologist went over my MRI results. As noted earlier in this post, there was nothing worrisome in the scan that would explain my memory loss issues. But there was mention of a small bony area in my skull, which looked odd (my words). This bone variation had been noted on a prior CT scan and has not appeared to change since then. The neurologist stated this doesn’t seem to be anything worth worrying about at the moment. But long term, he wants to ensure this area does not grow.
Verifying my symptoms.
Before meeting with the neurologist, a couple of grad students asked me a lot of questions. The students also led me through a series of logic tests. The doctor let me know my analytical skills seems to be quite sharp. I related my experience with brain fog during chemo and how I fought the fog with logic games. Since being off chemo, the brain fog slowly lifted over time. That is except for short-term memory loss.
He also noted that I seemed to be handling myself very well, both mentally and emotionally. I did relate the bit of depression I had earlier this year. But since then, I have been excellent and looking forward to each day. Since getting past that bit of depression, I don’t seem to have had many brain fog related symptoms other than short-term memory loss.
Finally, the neurologist had me walk through my short-term memory loss symptoms. I let him know it was other people that were informing me about the memory loss. I would have the same conversation just minutes apart and have no recollection of the earlier conversation. I also related how I used a webcam to verify my dog was taking advantage of my memory problems.
So far, I haven’t had problems remembering what I’m doing while driving or have feelings of being completely lost. I forget conversations and such in the short-term. Being unable to know if I’ve had a conversation before, has also caused me to avoid public situations around other people. It doesn’t seem consistent and seems worse the few weeks following maintenance treatment. Well, at least family members tell me its worse at those times.
The neurologist thinks this is a side-effect of the infusions or chemo.
At the end of the appointment, the neurologist let me know he believes I am suffering a side-effect from the drugs taken. Likely it is a side-effect from the Rituximab, although it was possibly still a side-effect from chemo a year ago. The fact the memory issues seem to coincide with my maintenance treatments seem to back up that theory. But he also noted it is excellent the other brain fog related items I had during chemo are absent.
I will follow up with him in four months.
I went into this appointment, thinking I was going to waste the neurologist’s time. Not only did I appear not to waste his time, but he also wants to meet with me again in four months to see how I’ve progressed. He informed my oncologist of his findings and recommended I go back on maintenance right away. I agreed with him that this one possible side-effect is not reason enough to stop maintenance. I only have about a year left of maintenance anyhow, and I want to stay in remission as long as possible!
PS. I did start maintenance infusions the very next day after this appointment. My oncologist wasted no time.
PPS. In a future post, I will briefly discuss other things the neurologist was able to explain about me that had nothing to do with the MRI or memory loss.
Song of the day: Feeling Good Again
I’ve shared this classic Robert Earl Keen song a few times. Leaving the appointment with the neurologist I was feeling pretty good. I couldn’t help but think about this song!
Bonus Song: Brain Damage
Before getting the MRI results, I had this classic Pink Floyd song going through my head occasionally. I kept wondering if maybe there was something wrong with my brain.